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I want to be free....
6:52 PM|11-22-2001

I've been looking for career information for the past hour. Right now, the only careers that I am interested in are all too unstable to actually go after them.

I wish I could die before I had to go to college. That way I wouldn't have to deal with all this shit, and life would be so much easier. But since I have to deal with it, I'll let it stress me out.

This is another reason why I want to be a kid again so badly. They dont have to deal with this.

I sort of wish that we lived in an oppressive society. That way I wouldn't have to worry about an education, because it would be wrong in the eyes of society.

What to do?

How do people go about finding jobs that make them happy? And, why can't I do that?

Nothing makes me happy except... Hell, I dont even know. I want to be an actress, but since I'm not exactly the most beautiful thing in the world, and not the best actress either, I doubt that I can get away with doing that.

And besides, I'm scared. I readily admit that I'm scared shitless when I think about the future and what is going to happen.

I wish I were free.

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