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Another events update
7:37 PM|06-07-2002

I'm sorry that I've been shit lately with updating. I just either haven't had the time or the drive to write in here.

I'll try to do better, I promise, but "try" is going to have to be the operative word. This is also considering that I have nothing going on in my life now, since school's out, and I may have nothing to say.

And I won't write anything just for the sake of writing.

*****

Today was the last day of school for students at AAHS. That means that as of 9:00 this evening, I will be a senior in high school. Commencement starts at 6:30 and will end after two or so hours.

I never, in a million years, would've thought that I would live to see my senior year of high school. I thought I'd kill myself before I got there.

But, I didn't. And I guess as a reward from the powers that be for not killing myself, I got all the classes I wanted.

Or maybe it's because I scheduled well. At any rate, I got my classes for next year, so I'm a pleased child.

In one month and two days, it will be this diary's one year anniversary. I think I'll just make a new layout for it, and make my diary pretty. Well, not "pretty", but different. It excites me.

By the way, I won't update much (not much of a change, right?) from July 2nd until the 26th or so. My family is flying to California and then driving home in an RV that we're buying while we're there.

I have no idea why we're wasting money to buy an Rv. It's not like we're big campers, because we're definitely not. But, we are buying the RV, whether or not it makes sense, so I'm going to be living the Chevy Chase family vacation this summer.

Because my family is exactly like that, except there are three kids, and there isn't a model-esque woman following us on all our excursions across the country.

But beyond that, we're pretty much the same. Especially during the "Vegas Vacation" movie. Damn, but that does express who we are.

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Remember the play that I was supposed to do on June 4 or 5 for the school with the drama classes? Well, because Ms. F (the principal) preferred to show a twenty-minute tape of a press conference about a drug bust at the school last week, the drama classes weren't permitted to perform.

When I found out, I thought I was going to cry. I nearly did.

Not because I had worked particularly hard, or because I really wanted to. I was looking forward to performing for completely narcissistic reasons.

I wanted my friends and classmates to see that I am, in fact, talented in theatre. I wanted them to see me really act, and not be a member of the chorus or ensemble. I wanted to prove myself. And if that's a shallow reason, then it's a shallow reason.

I also was looking forward to working with the seniors (yes, even Leon) for a final time. We were a family. Now, we're a separated family, and soon enough we won't be family at all.

It makes me sad.

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